Hey...

Hey... I wonder... I wonder if this is all real... What if I'm just some girl in a coma, sleeping her life away, and my whole life has been a lie? If all the laughs and all the tears are fake? And everything I've been striving for, longing for, wishing for, isn't real? If I've just been creating this life for myself, calling it my 'ideal world'? If so... Couldn't I have come up with a better life? Couldn't I have come up with a life with less pain? Or maybe that would've been boring... Or maybe... Maybe... This fake life will end in a way that I'm satisfied enough and I'll wake up kind of happy knowing it was just a dream....... But then I'll be overwhelmed with sadness at the thought that those I care about never existed... And I just might take my own life with that... They say that the cherry blossom fall at about 5 centimeters per second....

Hope and Light

Where there is Hope, there is Light.
Where there is Light, there is Hope.
You can not have one without the other,
For they are intertwined, connected.
Even if there is just a speck of one,
The other is there.
Some times you may not see it.
But they are there,
Deep in your heart and soul,
Both Hope and Light.
Together,
Forever,
Always...

Peaceful Madness

Peaceful Madness


As the days slip and
Blend into one another,
So does Reality
And my Imagination.


They tell me to
Stop daydreaming,
But I can’t.


The two worlds,
Keep on fusing.


If it keeps on going,
My mind
Won’t be able to
Tell them apart.


Let them, I don’t mind.
It’s fun!
And so I slip,
Further and further


Into what I call,
Peaceful…
Madness…

Courage and Madness

Courage, is like Madness,
Everyone has it.
Either hidden inside your soul,
Or roaring.
Courage can defeate Madness though,
If you have enough...

The Worst Feeling

The Worst Feeling


The worst feeling is not Death,

It is knowing that you aren't needed,

That you are alone in this world,

And you no longer have a reason to live for.

True Despair

I found this on the internet but it was by anonymoss so I can't tell you the real author, Sorry!

True Despair

~I walk around my once clear town now ridden with grime and smoke
~I walk to the schoolyard where children play, now covered with blood and bones
~I walk towards the forest where friends run and play now layered with bodies hanging from branches.
~I keep looking left and right as I walk down the grimy road; bodies covered in blood and holes
~Broken windows and battered doors and the sky that was once clear blue is now covered in dark red; a terrible massacre.
~As I'm looking up, I felt tears stinging from the corners of my eyes; threatening to fall.
~I look forward and kept on walking.
~I walked towards the cemetery; feeling at ease.
~The one place untouched by time.
~As I looked around, a tombstone caught my eye.
~I move towards the tombstone with severe uncertainty, wondering why I'm going to that tombstone.
~I stopped in front of the tombstone, I stared at it.
~Now I know why it caught my eye.
~It had my name on it.
~Here lies...

~Suddenly I couldn't hear anything.
~My heart pounding in my ears,
~My skin covered in sweat,
~And my vision started to fade in and out.
~As my vision faded, I heard voices; filled with sadness and desperation.
~I let the pain get the best of me and I passed out; welcoming the warm darkness.
~I opened my eyes from what seemed to fell like in eternity.
~I took a look around; a white room with an IV to the left and a monitor on the right.
~In front of me was a picture of my past; my family and I.
~My empty eyes started to fill up with tears and flowing down my cheeks.
~As I was crying, I realized one thing,
~The true despair is giving up,
~Only then do you feel dead inside.

Smile

Smile

If I can see,

Your smile again,

The tears I cry,

Would stop falling.

If you would smile,

I'll be happy.

If you do not,

I will cry on,

The sadness is,

That the truth is:

I just can't see

Your smile again!